Saricks, Brendan J.

The Birthday Post - Welcome to 3.0

It is currently 1:30am here in middle America. It will be significantly later by the time I finish this post, and later still by the time you actually read it, but right now its 1:30am on July 13th, 2010; my 29th birthday.

When I decided to start blogging again I wanted to avoid posts that delved into my personal life. To most, my life is as uninteresting as the guy they sit next to on the bus, and is therefore not really for public consumption. It is my opinion (I hope) that will drive readership here, and that was my intended focus.

But man, you guys would not believe what has happened to me in the last few months.

It’s my birthday and even though I’m only 2 posts in to my original content-pact, I am going to go off the reservation a little bit and talk frankly with you. I don’t want to give you too many details, I fear some situations herein are still too delicate to even be approached, let alone touched, but I want to tell you about me before, me now, and where me is going. Grammar school is not on the docket (sorry Aaron.) This will probably be scatterbrained. But come on, it’s almost 2am at this point, you would be scatterbrained too.

It’s pretty wild how far a year can take you.

A year ago, I was in the middle of Four Player Coop’s 15 minutes of fame. I remember sitting on the couch at Joe’s place (a name that means nothing to you, but means the world to me) watching G4 and seeing “Four Player Coop” scroll across the bottom of the screen in relation to a news story we had broke.

That was it kids, we had made it.

Upon reflection, all the bullshit that happened before and has happened since was insignificant to that moment. But even that moment has been upstaged by Bullshot!’s marginal success. I cannot give you the emotion I feel when it comes to finding out someone makes time to listen to your inane bullshit. It is a feeling without words. It has happened a lot of the past year, and it never gets old. I will never be able to thank you guys for that, but I will do what I can.

I cannot tell you what lay in 4pc’s future, I can only tell you that its past was a lot of fun.

I haven’t played a video game in a month. Seriously, you can check that shit. What’s worse, I haven’t enjoyed a video game in 2 months (apologies to Alan Wake and Prince of Persia - although I was still fair to both of you.) Guys, maybe you don’t understand the weight of that statement. I have not, in my 29 years on this earth, ever experienced an apathy towards video games like the one I am experiencing right now. In any other similar episode (similar in terms of feeling - not in terms of duration) I would simply chalk it up to being burnt out.

But this time feels…different

Is is permanent? (God I hope not, StarCraft 2 and Dead Rising 2 are just around the corner!) I don’t know for sure because I don’t know anything for sure right now, but it feels like its on the backburner until some other things get sorted out.

Yes there is a girl, yes there is a idea…yes, I think everything will be ok. Three topics so unrelated that the dial spins all the way back ‘round to “related.”

The bottom line is this. The last 2 months of my life have been wonderful and terrifying. I don’t know if this is the start of a mid-life crisis or if I legitimately just starting life as I will know it, but it’s pretty incredible. I don’t know what is going to happen to 4pc, I don’t know what is going to happen to me, but I know I’m going to write. I am going to write a lot and see what comes of it. Hopefully, you will stick along for the ride.

Welcome to 3.0